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Home Sweet Home

Sometimes, when I am deeply sad and awake late at night, I will cry out for a home that does not exist. A home that never existed. What a terrible feeling, wanting to return to a place I never had, to a feeling I never felt, to people I never knew. I cry out, “I want to go home” but there is no home. There never was, and there never will be, because no matter how hard I try, despite all that I put in, I cannot make a home. Nobody will let me. I am homeless while living indoors, and it’s a broken, busted feeling that eats away at me, like perpetually unfulfilled termites gnawing through my wooden bones.

I can see it. The place that never was, that home. If I shut my eyes and concentrate, I can see what should have been. A small warm place, safe and serene, filled with love and support, and all the things you will never allow me to have. Things that, if I could buy from a store, you would force me to return for credit. All I want is something of my own, somewhere that doesn’t make me feel like a foreigner in the place that I hail from, a prisoner in the place that I chose to inhabit, but it’s never a thing that will be. Like rain drying on hot cement, my tears disappear into the cloth of my shirt, and I remain a nomad. Searching. Wanting. Never having.

Sometimes I want to run away, run back home, to a place that doesn’t exist. Pack a bag and hitch a ride, because I would rather trust a stranger, as a stranger is just someone who hasn’t hurt me yet. I want to run back home, to a bedroom I never had, filled with things I never owned; the setting of impossible memories and nonexistent special moments. Why do I want to go home, instead of trying to make one? Because nobody will let me. Because no matter how many bricks I put in the walls, someone knocks it down. A foreman comes and claims it’s unstable and it must be redone. I am not an architect, but I think I know a blueprint when I see one.

I want a home.

But all you offer me is apartments.

I am in a very bad state these days. If anyone is willing to talk to me, feel free to comment. I could certainly use some uplifting, positive vibes from nice people.

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Birds My Father Hated: Season 2 Episode 19 “Robins”

Mavis runs into an old school mate named Robin and makes some interesting deductions.

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How Are You Today? Season 1 FINALE Episode 10 “Annabelle Is Feeling Guilty”

In this shocking season finale, Cleary gets a letter from a terminally ill little girl, and her conscience finally gets the best of her.

Well, that’s it. That’s a wrap on Season 1 of HOW ARE YOU TODAY?, and I sincerely hope you all enjoyed it and are looking forward to Season 2! Let’s give a BIG thanks to our host, Jennifer, who did just a phenomenal job playing Annabelle, because without her awesome performance, none of this would’ve been possible. Anyway, enjoy this bombshell of an ending!

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Birds My Father Hated: Season 2 Episode 17 “Peacocks”

In this special episode, Mavis finally tells the story of how she killed her father.

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How Are You Today? Season 1 Episode 9 “Mom Is Feeling Unwell”

Cleary, having gone through her diary from adolescence, comes across a passage about her mother, and her own problems dealing with her emotions, which in turns, makes Cleary reveal some things about her childhood.

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How Are You Today? Season 1 Episode 8 “Justin Is Feeling Ignored”

Cleary reads a letter from a man named Justin, who feels like nobody ever hears him or takes him seriously, which she certainly understands.

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How Are You Today?: Season 1 Episode 7 “Claire Is Feeling Smitten”

Cleary reads a letter from a woman named Claire, who admits she’s head over heels in love with someone, a feeling Cleary knows all too well herself.

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I’m Maggie. If you like this thing I made, you might like some other things I’ve done, like my 2015 novel “You Ruined Everything”, my podcast network “The Feel Bad Network” or my feed over at Ello. You can also find some published work for sale over at my Payhip , buy prints/stickers and more at my online store on Big Cartel, or support my work at my Patreon! Anything helps & is appreciated, thanks!